Sunrise, Sunset, Pollo ala Naranja

A evenings respite...

Truth: Does friendship live at the core of all intimate relationships?
Without it, trust and respect are absent,
which are the foundations of a successful relationship (intimate or not).
You may not have to trust someone to do what you want,
but you must trust someone to be who they are.

Madness: Anxiety has a sharp edge,
like the tongue of a demon slicing across your eyes,
It leaves you just as blind.

Food: Bamboo, Culver City(?), corner of Westwood and Venice Blvds.
The frappes have gone peach,
but it's still one of the places where the plaintains are delicious,
and they serve Guarana Antartica straight from the can.

Fun: This weekend: Cinespia presents _The Big Clock_ at the
Hollywood Forever Cemetary (Saturday night, gates open at 7:30pm),
Starring: Ray Milland, Charles Laughton
Maureen O'Sullivan, Harry Morgan, Elsa Lanchester; Classic Noir Crime Story:
http://us.imdb.com/title/tt0040160

Escape into the future, feet first

Anxiety, Aggression, Anger, and Caesar Salad

How can you express anger towards people you love without boning the situation?

Truth: I'm having a problem dealing with relationship frustration.
My anxiety in a complex situation is creating a lot of difficult emotions for me.
I find myself becoming physically (sexually) aggressive in the moments
where articulation fails me. This is generally tragically unwelcome at such moments.

Madness: Another unwelcome by-product is mounting anger.
I am amazed at the ease at which this sublimates towards people
outside of the exchange.

Food: The Kettle in Manhattan Beach (just off Manhattan Beach Blvd,
down by the water) is open 24x7.
Although I can't decide if I love the food there or not, I'm pretty sure I love the place.
It skews young after hours, although last night was the first time I wanted to feed someone
their digital camera.

Fun: I'm going to see the Bourne Supremacy at 23:59 tonight...
Why they just don't open on Wednesday
to get a 5 day box-office, I don't know.
I'd love it if the Studios would stagger their summer
releases (Wed/Fri/Wed/Fri/...). It would make summer more fun.

I hope this one reduced the pressure on the pretensiometer (c).

Lost in the blogtime continuum

A moment of joy, euro-angst, Big Mac, return to Anaheim

Truth: The light in a young girls voice, the note of joy in her words, can set the sun to shame;

Madness: Heute kann ich vom Fahren des gebrochenen Glases in mein Fleisch kaum halten.
Ich fühle so aus Steuerung heraus,
daß ein blutiger Tod zur dunklen Ungewißheit des Lebens vorzuziehend ist.

Food: The Mac and Cheese at Global Cuisine could stop a hummingbirds heart;
It's the top layer of emmenthaler that really locks in that smoky goodness;

Fun: A friend just called me and told me there is an event at
(Linda's) Doll Hut in Anaheim next week.
He's catering, and I'm hoping to go.
I thought Lindas had closed years ago,
along with the other shelters for alternative music across the Orange Curtain;

Life is a terrible, painful, humiliating experience, that is over with much too quickly
-- Woody Allen

Another Day, another meal, another bad idea

Trust, Pain, Gelato, Bad UI Adventures

Truth: What inspires trust? Apparently not honesty.
Honesty can inspire fear as easily as trust;
If Glasnost threatens through subtext, what text can overcome that?

Madness: Without trust, fear becomes prevalent. Often we think brave leadership inspires
brave action. Into what depths must we leap to inspire reciprocity?

Food: Gelato -- Massimo's on Abbot Kinney in Venice -- Try mixing
Hazelnut Chocolate and White Chocolate and hope your tongue
doesn't melt into the goo;

Fun: What is it that makes User Interfaces get uglier as they get more comprehensive?
The weight of detail slows development, even as it makes for navigational challenges.
Does default lead or follow?


Trying to find the balance between meaningful and stupid...

another night in paradise

Friends, Loss, Italian, Monsters

Truth: When friends share what they've learned on the
hard part of the road, they share the truest parts of
themselves. When friends who care enough to reveal the
things that have little pride for them, they light
a path in the darkness;

Madness: When loss is self inflicted, it feels less
like loss. Fear of loss seems to make us drive away
things and people before we lose them;

Food: The C&O Trattoria on Washington (on the
Venice/Marina Del Rey border) has some nice
food, in abundant quantities, and I'm glad
I found someplace besides Casablanca that has
a decent Calimari Steak;

Fun: The more I see of Monsters, Inc. the more impressed
I am by it. While the technical work is excellent,
the writing shines brighter and brighter with every
listen...and I hadn't noticed before tonight that
Nemo (which was release after Monsters) is one of the
toys in Boo's room;

I sure hope someone will tell me when this gets too pretentious...

Falling through the blogosphere

So, here I am...and I'm not sure what I'm doing here...
I guess I'll pick an arbitrary set of foci:
Truth
Madness
Food
Fun

Two Trivial, Two Serious, but I'm not sure which is which...

On Truth: Do we sacrifice respect by putting others before ourselves? Is this in a sense
enabling behaviour that validates the selfishness of others?

On Madness: Anxiety is a cumulative illness; Just putting this down in a blog makes me wonder
if it can be held against me forever, and by strangers (in itself a symptom of anxiety). The
downware spiral is the result of an accumulation of anxiety. It's nice to be analytical about
an irrational emotional state.

On Food: Geez, is Emerils Fish Market in Las Vegas one of the best restaurants in the world or what?
I have had some of the very best meals of my life there (although I must say both my companions
and the absolutely fabulous attentions of the staff add considerably to the experience). In our
last adventure, we sat at the newly renovated Kitchen Table (yes, turn on the privacy glass, if
you are facing the wrong way, you can still see into the kitchen). Emeril, Dave, Diane, and
Ed made a great night even better...

On Fun: Will Farrell in _Anchorman_ has created one of the most surreal and wonderful slice of
a decade that might never have been. Christina Applegate is all grown up, and hasn't lost
her talent for comedy, even without playing a dumb blonde.

On my first blogontology: What the fuck am I doing, and will I keep doing it?